When the clarity came through to officially close Gaea, I dug through all my old notebooks in search of this page in my journal. I wasn’t even sure if I had actually written the words or if it was a daydream.
But, here it is.
Written in my own hand.
Saying all that needs to be said.
In all honesty, folks, the yoga is working.
Thanks to the trusty guidance over the past decade plus of one of our dearest teachers, Erich Schiffmann, Legare and I have learned that yoga is listening. Tuning inward and listening. Listening for the inner guidance and then being brave enough to do as we are guided to do.
Erich once said that sometimes the guidance will make you feel like a fool. Because you will be guided to do something that makes no sense to other people. And barely makes sense in your own mind. But he offered that this is when the guidance is truly deep and Divine. Because when you can’t explain yourself to others, then you know it is not something that was fabricated by your mind alone. It came from the Soul.
This is one of those moments for Legare and me. We can give the Gaea community a multitude of reasons why we are closing, but all of them fall short because the decision comes from a place of peace and clarity that is unparalleled for both of us.
Clearly for me, the download started coming through a while ago. I wrote these words in my notebook last October 2018 while I was with another one of my teachers, Paul Grilley. It was my second 50-hour training on the Yoga Sutras with Paul and the teachings were fervently soaking-in this go-around. The peace I felt in the moment when I wrote these words was free of any fear.
That is the direction in which Legare and I point our compass.
When I studied with Sarah Powers a few years ago in Greece, she said “you have to be willing to be misunderstood”. These words were worth the entire cost of the training for me. Those eight simple words strung together opened a new dimension for me. I had never considered that I was afraid of doing things simply because my actions might be misconstrued. But I most definitely was. From that training onward, I steadily set my sites on a new reality where being misread was not a barrier to my decisions.
Being misunderstood is not easy. It feels much better in our minds when everyone receives our life with understanding. Being misunderstood can sometimes feel like we are standing naked. And I feel a bit like that now. But I am also comforted by the fact that I have never felt closer to my authentic Self than I do in this moment. For me, that is yoga.
This decision to close the doors of the studio was not a hasty one. It is a clear download. My meditations over the past years have gifted me with the insight to “Stay the Course”. These are the words I often hear when I pause and just dwell in my breath. The first time I heard them, I naively asked the voice, “But what is the course?”. And the voice said, “You’re on it.”
Baffled, I sat there in my meditation running circles in my mind. What kind of guidance is that? It seemed awfully vague. But I stayed with those words. Stay the course. Stay the course. And I have realized that the course is only revealed to me in each moment. My task is to be present to the unfolding of each fresh moment on the course. All I have is this moment. Live this moment to the fullest and I am on the path.
This version of Gaea has run Her course. As we move on with Her love in our hearts and our souls eternally transformed, let’s hold the knowing that She is not the walls of the studio. She is in us. We carry with us what we cultivated at Gaea as a community and a tribe and a family wherever we go.
It is a time to be brave. To be open and curious to where the course might lead us. A time to be brave enough to do as we are guided to do.
The cosmos awaits. The path is Peace. And the time is now.
Thank you for being a part of this Gaea Family. It wouldn’t have been the same without YOU.
Abounding LOVE, Kate